Sunday, December 11, 2011

Daring to rise up from the ash

I have three tattoos. The first I got for my 21st birthday with Krackle. It is a Celtic symbol that means divine inspiration and knowledge. I love it because it reminds me of her.

The second tattoo is a long story that I never told here. It is essentially for my dad. One day I will share. Today is about the third tattoo. 

This is the third tattoo:


Big Jed and I went and got them today. She got a picture of her baby girls feet and their names, a picture I will let her share. I debated what I wanted...and decided on a Phoenix with their first initials. Sophia and Avelina, S and A. Which is funny if you know me and know my real name. It was important to me that this was her story, so I wanted something subtle. But, I also wanted to remember them and to have a part of her always with me.

I decided on a Phoenix because of an Ani Difranco song. The song doesn't necessarily fit the situation, but it has always touched me and spoken a lot about who I am. If you know the song, I sort of chopped it up to give you the parts that I am talking about.

Squint your eyes and look closer
I am not between you and your ambition
I am a poster girl with no poster.
I am thirty two flavors and then some
And I am beyond your peripheral vision
So you might want to turn your head
Cause some day you are gonna get hungry
And eat most of the words you just said

And God help you if you are an ugly girl
Course too pretty is also your doom
Because everyone harbors a secret hatred
For the prettiest girl in the room
And God help if you are a phoenix
And you dare to rise up from the ash
A thousand eyes will smolder with jealously
While you are just flying there.

The first tattoo is on my back, the second on my wrist, the third on my left calf. Let me tell you something about tattoos...they don't really hurt on your back or your arm. THEY FUCKING HURT ON YOUR LEG. Holy hell do they hurt. The tattoo took an hour and a half too, where as the other two are smaller and took less than an hour combined. 

Regardless, I am in love with it. It is everything I wanted. 

I am now going to go hobble into the kitchen and make myself some food. Oh, yes, I said hobble. Yay for leg tattoos.

4 comments:

Josey said...

you're a pretty amazing friend

Big Jed said...

I love it so much. It makes me smile. Mr. Big Jed was very impressed as well. You should have seen the look on his face when I showed him the initials and told him it was for the girls.

You are an amazing friend. I love you.

Oak said...

Everyone should have a friend like you.

Erratic said...

You guys are being far too sweet. I am blushing a little. I have to make up for the general ass hole that I am somehow. :)