Wednesday, October 13, 2010

Something I hate.

A lot of bloggers I read are doing this 30 days of truth thing. And while I do not normally do this shit, I have been struggling for things to blog about while feeling the itch to write. Maybe this is the kick in the ass I need.

I have a disclaimer, though. I can't do it 30s day straight. A lot of my weekdays, I leave the house at 9:00 am and do not get home until 2:00 am. I love you all dearly, but I barely know my own name by the time I get home. Not to mention a daily truth. So, I will not be doing 30 days of truth, but 30 posts of truth. I will try to double up on days I don't work and such. I don't want this to be a year of Erratic posting from a list. Seriously, that would just be fucking dumb.

So, here is the list:

Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.
Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.
Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

Today, obviously, is the first post.

I hate my temper. I do not lose my temper often, but when I do, I lose complete control. I yell, I throw things, I say things I don't mean. I lash out and hurt whomever the anger is directed at. A significant amount of the time, I don't remember all of the events that took place when I do lose my shit. It's like blacking out from drinking, but totally sober. It is scary.

I have truly lost my shit less than 10 times in my adult life. But, sometimes even my minor temper moments are embarrassing. I always speak my mind and rarely hold back what I am feeling. So, if you are being a complete fucking ass hat, well, I'll probably tell you. And I probably won't sugar coat it. Some people find this to be a good quality, others think I am mean. 

Honesty is important to me, and I will always be honest with people I love. But, there is no reason for me to be an ass hole too; to lose my temper and say things that are unnecessarily mean. 

1 comment:

Bradshaw said...

If people are being total fucking asshats, they probably deserve to be told so. Somehow, I think we'd hate the same type people.