Decision

I am going to culinary school.

I don't know exactly when yet, but very soon.

I don't know how I am going to pay for it.

I don't know how I am going to work and go to school full time and still pay the mortgage.

I am terrified to commit to working nights and weekends for the rest of my life and what that means to the relationships I can't live without.

I know I have their support, no matter what hours I work.

I have never been so scared and so excited in my entire life.

I start looking for part time jobs tomorrow.

This has been in the back of my mind my entire life and it feels right. It feels right.

I am smiling and crying at the same time.

I am going to culinary school.

Holy Fuck. I put it out there. Now I can't take it back. For once in my life, I am going to follow through on something, because this is what I am meant to do, no matter how absolutely terrified I am.

Now if I can just make myself click publish post...